||[Nov. 11th, 2003|09:02 pm]
|||||silverstein - bleeds no more||]|
tiffi is back. and im eating a pickle out of a tupperware container and drinking a diet dr.pepper out of a starbucks mug right now.
i miss chicago. i never got to hug it goodbye. it was so lovely, and my kind of town. i felt so nice in chicago, felt like myself, and had a good time. i got to experience so much in just 4 short days. i never felt out of an element, an element that i only get ever so often. it was grand, wonderful, and right on point. it would have been nice to pack chicago up in a small bag and carry it around. chicago makes me happy. great, grand, wonderful enviroment. i miss it.
had total fun with everyone. thanks - to all of my friends, for basically just having a fun time with me, for making me laugh, and keeping me out of pure trouble, as well as allowing me to get into a little bit of trouble.. thanks for linking arms with me when i was feeling insecure and small in such a big place... thanks for just being my friends. i wish i could be completely honest with people and just so daringly true, but this is me being honest. im so miserable when im alone, but so incredibly happy when im around my friends and they just make me glow. friends are wonderful treasures, and i dont recommend losing any, because its horrible.
tiffiany gave me my ticket today. teehee. wondeeerful. i didnt goto school today, chicago helped me to get sick and worn out, but it was all worth it. i stayed home all day and watched movies and wrote and talked to my mom and went through clothes and put on makeup and took off makeup and plucked my eyebrows. i was bored. i was online a little, and talked to my bro some - silly kid, but loved. josh left me a sweet message, made me feel warm and fuzzy. i got all prettily dressed and me and tiffiany walked over to her house, and she ate dinner then we watched rules of attraction which i think is a very good movie. i missed a wonderful weekend at home, but nevertheless chicago was a wonderful weekend. came home and used the potty. mwahaha. my parents are downstairs chillaxing and they are all cute and adorable. a doctor sent my dad home with 6 different pill prescriptions, but its doing him good. my dad needs to stop smoking, and needs to stop worrying so much. so i guess these pills are his only current option until more tests are done and until he progressively gets better without the meds. my family is cute. we dont realize how much we are alike and how much we love each other. i missed them. things are settling now, and family life is good. my little sister is weird though, and my mom has split personalities. you know what feels good? having my parents praise me all the time telling me how proud they are of me. its soo much better than the pessimistic attitudes they had before, so much better. im just glad that overall things are better. glad for being happy and aware. its 9 oclock and im gonna finish listening to silverstein then goto bed. just bcuz im cool like that. oo, and put on my china shoes that i bought from china town *squeezes shoes*. lovely.