|...if the whole world is my enemy ill feel no remorse
||[Dec. 10th, 2003|08:10 pm]
|||||lucky boys confusion - of course||]|
so i had some symptoms of the flu.. blah blah blah.. but that still doesnt explain what happened, so i wasted 2 hours at the clinic that i could have used to sleep or anything that needed attention. i got two shots. one flu shot and one shot that i was supposed to get a couple of months ago that i didnt know about. ok... now i dont mind piercings or needles really.. but im horrified of getting shots. people know this - yes, it seems weird, but i dont know.. kind of goes along with my horrification(haha) of taking medicine. and now my right arm is just kind of.. there. and it hurts. but oh well. im glad thats over with. i got some more ibuprofen for the migraines, and scheduled an appointment for soon. im hoping that little episode i went through was just an episode and never happens again. i didnt goto school today, just kind of slept and listened to music - which chilled me out. ive still got a full-assed migraine and my throat hurts like a bitch, but i can deal with it.
i called aaron, no one answered. i called him saturday and he wasnt home. i do want to see the kid, and i do want to be with him, ya know? but this is getting kind of difficult. whats the use of having a boyfriend if you dont see or talk to him? when i find ways to see him so that my mom wont find out, he isnt there.. when i finally get to call him and talk to him, he isnt there.. he told me that even if he only got to see me once a year he would still want to be with me.. thats all fine and dandy and super sweet - but a girl gets lonely. its so much more lonier when you have a boyfriend and cant see/talk to him. i spend to much time and effort with this... but i cant help it.
i need to straighten up my room, but i just want to go curl up in my comforter on my bed and sleep. and school is not going to be fun tomorrow. ehh, i scanned and took tons of pictures during my lonesome hours. and my birthday is in 3 days. on saturday. still - no plans.. but i havent talked to anyone. and i am miranda's secret santa, i feel cool. but what to get her? i have noo clue.
ehh, im leaving. <3...tiffani