|never let me go
||[Dec. 9th, 2003|07:32 pm]
|||||matchbook romance - promise||]|
ive had a really bad migraine since friday.. and my head was pounding in study hall 1st bell.. so i closed my eyes and put my head in my hands.. and i kept feeling like i was going to throw up, i had sharp pains in my stomach and in my chest... i checked my watch to see what time it was and it was 8:16.. then i just blacked out and right before i opend my eyes i thought i was shaking and i kept hearing screams then i open my eyes 2 minutes later and i cant see straight. im looking around and no one is looking at me so im really weirded out because i could have sworn that i was shaking and that me or someone else was screaming and then the bell rings and im sweating and extremely cold and i couldnt walk and i was really dizzy and i asked liz to hold my books and i sat down at a lunch table... then got back up again and walked some then sat back down on another and liz asked me if i was ok.. and i wasnt sure what was going on... so she went to the nurses office and i was sitting at the lunch table freaking out, trying not to cry... but cami walked by and said hi, and i realized it was her and i told her she had to take me to the nurse so she grabbed my hand and helped my walk up the steps and took me to the office and i couldnt breath and i was pale and i just sat in the nurses office for four hours gagging and i could barely breath and my head was pounding.the whole time i was in the nurses office just certain things would happen like id almost throw up, or i couldnt open my eyes, and then id get really cold and sweaty... but my migraine is still here. i was fine before this.. i mean yah i had a migraine and the weathers been giving me a sore throat and the like... but eep.
it was by far the scariest thing that has ever happened to me. i didnt have a fever, and im really not sure what was wrong. my parents didnt pick me up until 11:30... which sucked.. because i didnt want to be at school still if i went through another one of those full episodes again. my mom made me an appointment for the doctors tomorrow at 2:40PM, and im kind of afraid to go back to school tomorrow before i figure out why that happened. and my mom prob wont make me go. i dont think they believe me... but i wouldnt lie about something that scared me so much.. i was telling my mom what happened and i was tearing up.. i dont know. nothing like this has ever happened to me, besides panic attacks.. but this was soo different. i dont know.
ehh. all so strange.
richie called me. he is the greatest alive. helped me calm down some. talked to me. ehh, he is just the coolest cat. im sending him goodies for christmas. shall be fun. oolala, and saturday is my birthday. another birthday alone? pretty sure.
nothing else to say. i need a hug. stay cool.