||[Dec. 5th, 2003|07:42 pm]
|||||a static lullaby - lipgloss and letdown||]|
i want to do something tonight. this weekend. i dont care. im tired of being here - all alone - day after day. someone help me escape? please?
there were 2 wrecks on my street today. apparently someone died. lucky them. i almost got hit by a car this morning, HELLO.. its a red light for a meaning.. and this afternoon because there was no crosswalk at the bus stop i had to get off at. he had to take elberon instead of the regular river road way, sniffles, and i almost got killed and had to walk down a bunch of citysteps. but i <3 those steps.. remind me of when my happy childhood. it was raining though, and i was really cold. i wasnt hungry today, but i had to eat. my tummy was making those sounds, and it scared me. i think i have symptoms of the flu? or maybe im just paranoid? ive got to goto the gym @ 10am. sucks, but ehh, at least ill feel all energized tomorrow. energized for nothing. i doubt ill get to see aaron because ive only talked to him once this week, and he just basically ignored me the whole time, and im not sure im going to call him. maybe he just wants me because he knows how horribly i am in love with him and he feels the same or he just wants sex. i think he just wants sex. which is funny. silly me. what am i supposed to do? oh well. dont really care honestly. i finished my doll in art. im happy. im starting on my latin project tonight, maybe, if i dont go over tiffianys house. i wish id taken photography last year. i love photography. photos make me have warmfuzzies. this is all about nothing. makes no sense. i just dont care. bllllah.