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[Dec. 5th, 2003|07:42 pm]
[mood |annoyedannoyed]
[music |a static lullaby - lipgloss and letdown]

i want to do something tonight. this weekend. i dont care. im tired of being here - all alone - day after day. someone help me escape? please?

there were 2 wrecks on my street today. apparently someone died. lucky them. i almost got hit by a car this morning, HELLO.. its a red light for a meaning.. and this afternoon because there was no crosswalk at the bus stop i had to get off at. he had to take elberon instead of the regular river road way, sniffles, and i almost got killed and had to walk down a bunch of citysteps. but i <3 those steps.. remind me of when my happy childhood. it was raining though, and i was really cold. i wasnt hungry today, but i had to eat. my tummy was making those sounds, and it scared me. i think i have symptoms of the flu? or maybe im just paranoid? ive got to goto the gym @ 10am. sucks, but ehh, at least ill feel all energized tomorrow. energized for nothing. i doubt ill get to see aaron because ive only talked to him once this week, and he just basically ignored me the whole time, and im not sure im going to call him. maybe he just wants me because he knows how horribly i am in love with him and he feels the same or he just wants sex. i think he just wants sex. which is funny. silly me. what am i supposed to do? oh well. dont really care honestly. i finished my doll in art. im happy. im starting on my latin project tonight, maybe, if i dont go over tiffianys house. i wish id taken photography last year. i love photography. photos make me have warmfuzzies. this is all about nothing. makes no sense. i just dont care. bllllah.

if only i was as invisible as you make me feel


[User Picture]From: duckys
2003-12-05 06:18 pm (UTC)
oh god. are you talking about you or me? haha. never doing anything on the weekends. the guy you like igonres you and most likely just want to fuck you. and your just waiting to die.
i know so well how you feel.
plus, i even have a slow growing love for photography and wish i took a class for it too.
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From: alzifoo13
2003-12-05 08:02 pm (UTC)
aww tiffi ur so beautiful
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[User Picture]From: kissmelikethat
2003-12-05 08:04 pm (UTC)


The weather was bad here, so I stayed home all night. Aww ur soooo pretty. I'm glad u didnt get hit by a car. I wuv ya hunni!
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[User Picture]From: lethargicgoblin
2003-12-05 08:14 pm (UTC)


i know exactly how you feel and I somewhat sympothize. There are many occasions when I wished I had died I am still having that feeling. When you have feelings like those you pretty much have 2 options. 1. grit your teeth and bare through it or 2. just let death happen, whether you bring it on yourself or its an accident. The latter may not be the best way but its a quick fix to your problem. But I am not incouraging it, I would be crushed if you died. If you ever need to talk, please tell me. I would love to actually be able to do some good in a person's life than just be a waste of space. <3 ya. please feel free to talk to me. most times if i have an away message up i am just sitting in front of the computer waiting for someone to talk to me. Not my favorite but you could always call. Bye bye
**Sorry if I have made it worse in any way.
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[User Picture]From: cerberust
2003-12-06 12:23 am (UTC)
Im typing this from a shittymac on a dial upfrom an apartmentin columbusohio and i dont know have oif the poeopel living here. Im having a ball, ubt i cant work thislittle tiny keyboard. anyways. let it be a lkong time before you let a guy rule your mental stabilityso heavily. thats howi am, it=s goinna be a long time before a woman rules mylife so heavily! Anyhoiw, you take caqre oif yerswelf.
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